Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I FAIL!

Wow.
Three Months.
SERIOUSLY?!
What happened to the time?????

This is the time where I wake up from the dream and its still mid-late September and I'm not about to take semester finals. Except I'm not waking up......

Alright. So I pretty much SUCK(stink. Sorry Mom) at keeping a blog. I can't seem to find time for it. Let alone 3 BLOGS. Geez, what was I thinking. You can blame Write to Publish and good ol' Mr. Stover for my lack of time nowadays. All I've been doing is writing, revising, writing some more, and reading articles about the type of writing I'm writing. Its not that I hate the class. On the contrary, its my favorite class simply because I'm learning so much about the world of writing! And I'm forced to submit my work to the real world and see how it holds up against everyone else. Its amazing and Stover is a literary genius that I aspire to be one day. The genius part, not the scrawny old man that clears his throat too many times and has a cabin/house near Lake Huron in Canada.
Although that cabin sounds really nice....

Anyways, so let me nutshell my life in the past three months in a very badly written poem:

Senior days
Oklahoma nights
Halloween
was emotional
Girl at work
annoys me like
a mosquito in
the ear of a
jackal.

Coldplay
came and went
bought a camera
on a whim.
Thanksgiving
was lovely
trees tip over
leaking water
on the floor.

Twilight
was awful.
But who expected
something good
from something
so horrendous?
Social life
is down the drain
maybe it'll be saved
come christmas break.

Math sucks.
Stinks.
Excuse me mother.
Genetics
is a joke.
I really hate reading
and writing
poetry.
Except Billy
Collins.

Well...I think that just about sums it up. Except for the fact that I volunteered to be the assistant director of the all school play, The Good Doctor. So I'll be doing that all next month until it opens January 22nd. I think it'll be fun. And MUCH MUCH MUCH better than last year's Much Ado About Nothing. *shudder shudder shudder*

I'll conclude by telling you my newest obsession: Wizard Wrock. I'd been a mild fan the past few years, only knowing a few songs and vaguely remembering the tune. But ever since I decided to buy the newest christmas compliation made by my favorite Harry Potter website, The Leaky Cauldron, called Jingle Spells 2, I've been in Harry Potter heaven. Its AMAZING! Not only did it have songs by my old favorites Harry and the Potters, The Remus Lupins and Gred and Forge, but I discovered some new bands that are wonderful: Ministry of Magic(love them!), The Moaning Myrtles, Draco and the Malfoys, RiddleTM, Catchlove, Justin-Finch Fletchley and the Sugar Quills, and much more. Its a great CD full of songs titled "Nargles in the Mistletoe", "Draco's Christmas Wish" and "A Very Voldemort Christmas". I got the CD last week and already I have some of the songs memorized. If you want to hear some, just let me know. Though be warned: you'd be stuck listening to Wizard Wrock for hours on end. If you don't want to talk to me, go to http://wizrocklopedia.com/. Its a great site for your inner wrocker.

Aside from Jingle Spells 2, I've also been obsessing over Prospekt's March, Coldplay's EP they released late November. It has some great stuff like Glass of Water(which switches from 4/4 meter to 7/4 meter. AWESOME!), Now My Feet Won't Touch the Ground, Rainy Day, etc. Coldplay just never fails to amaze me.

I really don't have anything else to talk about. But I will give a shamless shout-out to the amazingness that is the TV show Psych. Those boys are HOT! And its hilarious.

And thats all!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Ups and Downs of Life

My title is soooo cliche. Get over it.

I will highlight my week, as usual. There are only small things I remember, none of them LIFE-ALTERING moments, but all of them stand out for some strange reason. There probably is a connection and if any of you feel so inclined as to tell me this connection as you read, please do so.

Oh, and a special shout-out to those who recommended books to me. Much appreciated! I might check them out, but there are two that I have in mind: Seductive Poison (a memoir about a woman apart of Jim Jones' cult and Jonestown) and Naked by David Sedaris. The titles are so scandalous. But I want to CLARIFY to everyone that I am not addicted to porn or anything remotely related to that kind of rubbish. I just enjoy provocative titles of quite normal and mundane books. They make me laugh. So that'll probably be first semester. But I'll check out the other suggestions. They sound amazing! And if I have time, I'll read a few for this semester. So many books, so little time! I feel rushed...

So, the moments that stood out this week. For one, I bought all the materials I need to create my mini-stage of the show The Secret Garden. The set I chose was the garden wall and setting around it. I decided to have a rotating piece in which the wall is the dividing part. On the outside is the old worn wall with weeds all over it and a bench. On the inside is the brown/"dead" garden with an overgrown wheel barrow and garden tools. I found all these miniatures at Hobby Lobby! It was amazing! I was going there just to get the weeds and bench and ended up leaving with styrofoam for trees, mini-flowers for the garden and the wheel barrow and tools. It was amazing. Hobby Lobby=lots o' love. I'll have to take a picture of the finished product and post it on my blog. It isn't exactly to size because my wall is mishapened and the trees and flowers will look bigger than they're supposed to be. But it will get across my vision. So I remember that excursion and the excitement of finding those amazing treasures.

Another moment that stands out to me was when I got my cornea looked at. If you've never had this experience, its quite scary. He has to numb your eye and then put some freaky yellow dye into it (I rhymed!). After that, he looks at your eye with a black light and you can see your eye ina reflection of the light bulbs. It looks like your crying neon yellow urine. It was FREAKY! I guess I should tell you the story of WHY I had my cornea looked at. Long story short: I woke up on friday with an eye that wouldn't stop hurting. Blinking, not blinking, opened, closed, it HURT! I stayed home from school and went to teh doctor. He told me it didn't look like anything and to go to an eye doctor if it persisted. It stopped hurting today. Thankfully. Although I was looking forward to missing more school.

Lets see...another moment that stood out to me. Oh yes! My friend invited me to his bonfire after homecoming. I didn't go to homecoming because I was working, and he and his date came in to eat at Bob's. Thats where he invited me. So once I got off work and re-looked up where he lived, I went out there and spent about an hour and half there enjoying people's company and unwinding. It was nice spending time with people that enjoy fires as much as I do. And my friend's frog is named Sarah Palin. How awesome is that?!!

I have a few unpleasant moments about work. But thats another story. And it really is. Its going to be apart of my memoir for my WTP(Write To Publish) class. Once that's in a readable format, I'll post it on either of my blogs and you can read about all the ups and downs of work, for there are many. Lets just say...I get annoyed with people. A lot. Particularly ONE person. Grrrr.

Lets see, I should make a list of things that I need to get done. Don't ask me how this is relevent to this post. I just feel like I should. Not that I'll check it or something. But Here are my weekly goals:
1. Work out schedule with Bill and Shawn as far as dates that I can't do because of musical
2. Finish stage set
3. Cash all my checks and pay debt
4. Turn in Band of Brothers(LOOONG over due) and check out other memoirs
5. Write up rough draft of memoir
6. Paint furniture and move it into my room
7. Work out musical schedule with other commitments
8. SURVIVE this 3 1/2 day week. YES!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

This Week in the Life of Kirsti...

Two words: Oklahoma Auditions. Thats what has sucked up my life for the most of this week. I auditioned using the Ado Annie audition script and music and ended up getting only chorus. Its fine. Its kinda what I was expecting. I knew I wasn't destined for a good part. But thats perfectly okay. I'll have fun in chorus nonetheless. I am only a featured dancer in one song, something me and my friend Lauren are very bitter about. Since we're seniors, we wanted some more solo time. Its not like we're crappy dancers! Annnnyways, the audition process was stressful. And the practice schedule will be stressful, what with juggling work, private lessons, homework, and my teaching of private lessons, which will start full swing with at least 2 brand new students plus my 2 I had before. So just keep in mind, if I don't contact you for a few months, its because my life just got so much more busy, even with me quitting tennis and the marching band(yes, I quit that idea).

I also had the ACT this past Saturday. This was my second time doing it, and it was just as bad. ACTually(get it?), I signed up for this ACT because when I was still commited to the band, the October ACT date conflicted with Greater St. Louis (GSL) competition. So I panicked and signed up for the September date, which was only a few weeks from when I signed up. I didn't study and then band fell through, so this ACT date became another practice. I will be taking it in October so that I have a good amount of time to study. Not that my current score isn't horrible. I'm pretty sure both my propective schools, BYU and UM-SL, will accept the score. I just want to raise it because I'm sure I can, if I try hard enough. So far, both ACT attempts were very half-hearted. I want to give it my all come October.

This last bit is for anyone: Does anyone know a good anthology of Short Stories, or even a collection of short stories, or a really good memoir? I need anything I can get my hands on for my Independent Reading in my Write to Publish(WTP) Class. Thanks!!

P.S. Federer won the US Open. Fed Express is back on board! :D Bye bye, Nadal!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Ugh, I FAIL at updating my Blog.

So, apparently my blog is a monthly thing. I wish it weren't but every time I think about blogging, I feel this huge overwhelming daunting feeling that I have to commit to it for hours and hours, making it look pretty and presentable. I guess the real solution to this huge leave of absence between posts is to NOT CARE if its as pretty as my sister Emily's blog or as informative and witty as Steven's blog or as heart felt and emotional as Sarah's blog or important to the family as Beckie's blog. I should just write. Much like my journal for my Write to Publish, I won't really care for pretty-ness or even things that make sense. I'll just write weekly things that I feel like writing. If you want more or want a specific detail of my life, just call me or request it in the comments. Kay?

So, my classes. That's what I'm going to rant about today. Here is my schedule:

1. Orchestra
2. Personal Finance
3. AP Statistics
4. Human Genetics
***LUNCH***
5. Write To Publish
6. Musical Productions 3
7. AP Music Theory

Yeah, so Orchestra is orchestra. No biggie. But Personal Finance is easily my most boring class of the day. I don't know anyone in the class except two juniors who I remotely enjoy talking to. But we're on a seating chart and they are on the EXACT OPPOSITE side of the room. Yayz -_- It'll hopefully be an easy A. I've yet to see how challenging tests are. I'll know by tomorrow. I have one then.
AP Statistics will be a challenge. Already had a test and got a B. Mind you, I didn't study. Which was stupid of me. Really. Anyways, it'll be fun. Lots of friends in there and the teacher is adorable! Mrs.Neider for those Hickmanites who are curious. So yeah. Thats Stat.
Human Genetics. Where do I start? Heheheh. Well, the material will be neat to learn. Just the teacher will be the horrible part of it. She's an extremely horrid teacher! I'm not going to post the name in fears that she'll randomly google her name and my blog will come up and she'll read this horrible crap about her. Believe me. Thats what my tennis coach did. Thankfully, it was nice stuff and not me bashing him(not that I would). Anyways, so anonymous teacher just...CAN'T TEACH! And I swear she hates me. Probably because Sarah fell asleep in her class all the time. Great. So it'll be an interesting year in that class.
Then I have lunch. I eat with Daniel, Kelsey, Kevin, and Miranda. Gabby joins us sometimes. Its a small but fun group. We sit outside and eat while either enjoying the weather, complaining about the weather, or commenting on the fact that they cut down a tree or mowed the grass. Good times. Then me, Kelsey, and Kevin make our way to Write to Publish.
This is easily my favorite class right now. Stover is a genius. He has strange mannerisms that I enjoy observing, like the fact that when he wears button up shirts, he leaves the first two buttons undone so you can clearly see the salt and pepper chest hair peaking out. And he clears his throat a lot in the middle of sentences. I wonder if this is because its right after lunch and his throat still has remnants of his meal. I can understand that. Or maybe its a tic. I don't know. I just know that he is brilliant and I find myself yearning for more writing time and for a longer class period. Everything he says about writing makes sense. I even enjoy the readings he assigns. Especially Natalie Goldberg. She's an amazing writer. And hilarious! So Write to Publish is definitely demanding and will be very intense, but I'm excited and pumped. Motivated. Energized. And every other adjective that exists that are synonyms of the previous words.
Then I have Musical Productions 3. We're doing a musical project. We choose a musical, do everything a director has to do, including costumes(having to draw a few at the moment). I'm doing The Secret Garden as my musical. Its great fun! But we only have 12 people in the class, and we're actually putting on a few scenes in the class. The minimum is 2 songs and a scene, I think. I'll probably go over the minimum. There are so many good things in there! I'll let you know how things are going when I'm actually directing the scenes and such.
Last, butnot least, is AP Music Theory. At first, I enjoyed this class. Now its the pinnacle of all my grief. Its not boring. The teacher isn't horrible. Its just that we're being graded on THEORY! Its like being graded on your opinions. Except you don't have your own opinions. You HAVE to agree with the teacher. You have to do what he says. And what he's saying isn't exactly...correct all the time. And its annoying. I'm doing things the way I think is correct and get points off when it isn't because he says so. It IS correct, just not to him at that moment. And its sooo annoying! I'd explain. But it takes too much out of me. Call me for the full rant. The people in the class are fun. Its an overall fun class. Its just....me and the teacher don't exactly meet eye to eye. See, he's a choir teacher. They do things differently than orchestra or band(which I've been in both). And....its annoying. REALLY annoying. I'm almost tempted to drop and try and do something else, like tech theatre for a practical art. Then I can drop personal finance and take something else then.
Anyways. Thats about it with my schedule. Want any more, call me. You know how to contact me.
Sorry the post isn't aesthetically pretty. I just hope the actual act of me posting is enough. Plus its late. I have school and seminary tomorrow. Ugh. Seminary.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

A Month?!

I'm working 4 days a week for about 5 hours each day and there have been ups and downs. The ups? Making money, making friends, and learning great people skills. The downs? Being stiffed. For being such a young server(1 month old), I already have a small collection of horror stories. Let me tell you the worst:

This was last friday night. Friday nights have been really bad to me, so far. They're jinxed in my mind. Anyways, so I was in the big table section AKA The WORST section at Bob's. We were over-staffed because of the Show-Me games and everyone was making bad money. A 5-top came in and it was my first big table of the night. I'd already done a week's worth of big tops, so I thought this was no biggy. It would be easy. I go over there and they're a chatty bunch. All talking to eachother, getting settled. I decide to take their drink order(naturally). The first boy teen gives me his drink, and I turn to the girl teen. She's texting on her phone. I ask "What would you like to drink?" She doesn't look up. Instead she turns to the second teen boy and screams "Ew, your friend wants to go out with me!" First teen boy laughs. Second teen boy holds out his hand.
"Gimme the phone!"
"Its my phone!"
"I wanna tell him something!"
"What, that he doesn't have a chance?"
"Exactly."
They all start laughing and the mom hits the daughter and says "Quit being rude, give the girl your drink!"
"I want a coke."
And then the orders continued, but not without some chatting in between and the mom asking "Do you have avacados?" So I get their drinks, come back and try to get their order. This takes 10 minutes about. The mom was the main instigator this time. She's hitting her kids, being rude, and arguing with her husband. The husband is arguing back, saying they should've gone to CC Broilers. Secretly, I agree. They all order their food, the only easy order being the second teen boys order of a Chicken and Noodle Deep Dish dinner. I place in the order and go about refilling their drinks, listening to them argue again. I have other tables, but they keep on demanding things of me. I had to get a fellow server to set up my tables for me! So their food comes out, I give it to them, and leave them to their food. A minute after I give their food to them, the table summons me over. What else is new -_-? And this is what she says
"I wanted my eggs benedict over an english muffin, not biscuit."
Ugh. Picky eaters. I take it back, its easy to slide it onto an english muffin and then I give it back to her, and they're still arguing.
The last blow was when they were about to leave. The girl and the mother are arguing about the strawberry supreme pie.
"Is it a cheesecake?" The girl asks.
"No, honey."
"But it says there is cream cheese in it!"
"Honey, its not the same."
I'm thinking to myself "it says pie. P-I-E. Not cheese cake. Stupid girl."
"Well...I want some!"
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, its like cheese cake."
The mom sighs. I write it down as the girl nods towards me. I ring it in, start to bring it out...
"Um, I don't want it anymore."

What?

"You can take it back, now." She smiles. I turn around and my face is blank. What a rude girl.
So the family leaves and I start to bus the table. I hope to find a few dollars there, at least. But I look. And there is nothing. Absolutely nothing. But I feel like giving the family the benefit of the doubt. So I check credit tips. There haven't been any all night. After that I was on the verge of tears for 15 minutes and I was shaking really bad. They STIFFED me. That rude family stiffed me! It was my worst night ever! I made 11 dollars total and I couldn't believe it.

Anyways, besides that experience, I have enjoyed working at Bob Evans. Except on Friday nights in the big table section. That section forever will be the bane of my existence.

So thats all for now. I'm tired of typing.





Friday, July 11, 2008

Picture Survey

Well, I decided to do this as well. It is midnight, but I have an excuse to be up: I am STUDYING really hard for the stupid Bob Evans tests I have to pass in order to take my own tables and make good money. And now I'm hyped on sugar to keep me up and I can't get to sleep. So forgive me, parents, I stayed up past computer curfew.

Rules: for each question, look up the answer in a Google Image search. Then choose your favorite from the first page of results only. Anyways, let me go ahead and get started.

Your Age

A Place You'd Like To Travel


Your Favorite Place


Your Favorite Object
Your Favorite Food

Your Favorite Animal(bahaha, get it? Bear!)


Your Favorite Color


The Town You Were Born


The Town Where You Live

A Past Pet

A Past Love


Your Best Friends Nickname


Your Screen Name(only stuff I could find were some old posts from The Leaky Lounge, so I posted the picture that was in my username signature at the time)

Your First Name

Your Middle Name

Your Last Name

A Personal Bad Habit

Your First Job

Your Grandmother's Name

Your College Degree...(what I want to be, I guess)




Phew! That took a long time. But now I am tired so I think I'll go to bed. I've got a long day ahead tomorrow...well, today. Wish me luck on the job and if you have questions about the pictures, just comment and I'll answer them. But I think most are self-explanatory. Anyways, goodnight, or good morning, whichever you prefer.





Thursday, July 3, 2008

Viva La Vida!


Yes, I finally got the new album! And its amazing! Just listen for yourself on the new playlist. Yes, it is new! Anyways, I've been listening to the CD obsessively and already have my favorites. Let me put them in order:

1. Yes
2. Viva La Vida
3. Violet Hill
4. 42
5. Lost!
6. Death and All His Friends
7. Strawberry Swing
8. Cemeteries of London
9. Life in Technicolor
10. Lovers in Japan

They are actually all really good songs. So putting them in order is like picking your favorite child.

What I really wanted to talk about on this post was not how obsessed I am with Coldplay. It was to discuss the meaning of the lyrics to the title track Viva La Vida.

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh


I was looking on a message board and the people on the board were debating who the song is portraying. And I heard two very good arguments(I suggest that you read the lyrics again and think of one of the two arguments and contemplate it, then read them again for the next argument).

1. The person is Satan
2. The person is King Richard the Lionhearted, who conquered Jerusalem during the Crusades.

As you can see, they both work very well. Some thought it was George Bush or Napoleon, but I don't think its either of them. They aren't as solid as an argument. Anyways, I also want to promote the depth of Coldplay lyrics. They aren't just lovey dovey heart break songs. They make you think. In fact, this WHOLE album makes me think. All of their music makes me think! And I love that! The words have meaning and are there for a reason. Viva La Vida is only one example. Aren't convinced? Check out some lyrics sights and look up all of Coldplay's songs. You won't find one song that's simple. Well, maybe one. I'll not say they're perfect just yet.

Also, check out their video for Violet Hill on YouTube. Its pretty good. They also have a funny Politicians dancing video, and that might be on YouTube. Not sure, though. I saw it on their website, so if you can't find it on The Tube, check out their website coldplay.com.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

The Creepy Dream on the Night of June 1, 2008

Alright, so this is a dream that I had at the beginning of June and it was really disturbing to me. I'll go ahead and rewrite the journal entry I made the moment I woke from the dream at 1:00 in the morning(keep in mind, a lot of the sentencing is very incoherent since I began writing the MOMENT I woke up):
I first walked into a very fancy theatre, in England, and the first vivid detail was [me] standing there, waiting for the british guard to take their positions at the exits[it was a tradition of the theatre to play a march while they did this]. I was standing there with a bunch of girls, all chatting excitedly. We then take our seats and then I notice a blood curdling scream and a few girls rushing outside[into the hallway]. I look around and the only ones who've noticed were the girls[I was with]. I don't seem surprised, only scared. I move down to the front row of the theatre and sit next to a girl I know and tell her the musical was good(it had started). A lady taps me on the shoulder, I turn, and she tells me[in a thick cockney accent] a woman has been stabbed to death along with her baby. I rush to my mom[who miraculously turns up] and tell her and my dad[what happened], and they're sad but go to sit in their seats which aren't next to each other[what I didn't write that night was that I could see every one of my siblings, all in different parts of the theatre]. The musical continues but many people have left and I sit by my mom, terrified to be alone. I whisper to her asking if the police were here. She said yes[relief washed over me at that instant]. I thought for a sec, looked around and whispered[to her again], "What if I'm next?"
Okay, so I should specify where I was actually in the theatre when I was sitting with my mom. We were on the balcony(I was always there), and we were midway up and(if you were looking down onto the stage) on the left side. The strange thing was that where we were sitting was at a spot where one side of the section was filled with people and the other was empty of people. Mom was sitting on the edge of the full half and I was on the edge of the empty half. Follow me? Anyways, when I asked her if there were policemen and she said yes, I was relieved. And then I saw a shadow pass the exit that was almost directly to my right. The hall light was on and the exit door was open and there was a shadow as if someone walked passed the door. And thats when I asked "What if I'm next?"

So that is the dream, and you can understand WHY it was very disturbing to me. How can my mind create something so realistic and graphic? It kind of scares me sometimes that my mind has these emotions and images bottled up in my subconscious. If Sigmund Freud analyzed my mind at this very moment, he'd call me a sociopath! Okay, maybe NOT that far. But he'd diagnose me some happy pills or something.

I told dad the dream the next morning over breakfast and he had a good explanation as to why all my siblings were all over the place. For one, in the past week I'd had 2 of my sisters leave on the same day to different locations on the planet. Not to mention my siblings in Indiana, my sister in St.Louis, and my brother off in his own, new married life. The only people that I can make physical contact with on a daily basis are my parents, and not even my dad sometimes because of work and being a bishop and all. So the reason why I can communicate openly with mom is because in real life, she is RIGHT there, literally. And its interesting where all the siblings are placed.

Keep in mind, me and mom are on the balcony, far left:

Juli-very front of the balcony, far right.
Elise-next to her, on her left.
Emily(without Joe and Noah)-in the middle of the balcony section. Exact middle. Middle section, halfway up.
Beckie-I am aware of her position, though she is not visible: she is on the floor, in the back, so underneath the balcony.
Steven(without Tamara)-Very front of the left section
Sarah-On the floor, but visible. She's near the front, maybe 5 rows back. But I can see her.
Me and mom- Middle of the left section
Dad-In the VERY back of the middle section, falling asleep, though sort of awake during this.

So this is very accurate to real life. Juli and Elise are relatively close together, though too far for me to talk directly to them. Emily is closer, though not as close as Steven is(don't know why their families aren't included. Maybe because I'm thinking of them as themselves, not with their spouses and children). And then Beckie is completely out of sight because she's not even in the same country as I am. But I know how to reach her if necessary. Sarah is on the floor but I can see her, representing her distance from me physically but she's still in the country, making her visible and more attainable. And then dad, who would logically be near me and mom but isn't. Dad thinks that that representation is more an emotional level than physical, though physical is a factor. He is gone all the time for church and work, and emotionally he isn't as "in the know" as mom is. And maybe because he is a bishop makes me think he's at a higher spiritual level and doesn't worry about the things in the world. I don't know. He's the anomaly.

But the woman being murdered? Stabbed to death? And her baby? Obviously, this isn't the focal point of the dream, but it still unnerves me. Maybe thats the one thing that scares me: not being in control. Knowing that things have to play out(which was represented by my not being surprised to hear of her death) but still being frightened of them playing out. And maybe not wanting the inevitable to happen to me. Maybe I feel like my life is careening out of control and I can't do anything about it.

Whatever the reason for the dream, it'll be one I'll remember for a long time.

Now for a little self-promotion: check out my BRAINSTORMING blog(link to the side) for the story inspired by such a disturbing dream.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Just for the record...

I've updated my BRAINSTORMING blog. Not story. Brainstorming. Yeah. Its long but I really wanted to get that idea out there. If you have time, please please please read it and comment/email me about the idea. I want to know if its worth brainstorming. Thanks!

What is up with the Tennis world?!

So, Wimbledon has started. And I had my heart set on Novak Djokovic to take the Grand Slam by storm. And guess what? He's out. Yeah. OUT! He got through the first round, but once he had to face Marat Safin in the second round, he choked. Straight sets. It was BAD! Ugh, I'm still cringing about it. He lost 4-6 6-7 2-6. How could he? He was doing so well! So now I have to support Federer since he's my only hope of stopping Nadal from winning Wimbledon. I guess I could blindly support and be optimistic about Lleyton Hewitt and Andy Roddick. Whats also upsetting is that Davydenko is out too. #3 and #4 seeds are out. So sad.

And the women's seeding is really messed up. Not that I'm complaining that Ivanovic is number one. I have been a fan of hers since she debuted on the main scene about a year ago. The Serbians have been taking over the tennis world(except for Nole currently. Man, second round? Really?). But making Jelena Jankovic #2 seed? She hasn't won a single grand slam. I would've done Maria as #2 and then Jelena as #3. But what do I know? I'm just an avid fan.

Anyways, Federer is still in, Roddick is too(he's playing at the moment), Nadal is still in, as is Hewitt, and James Blake is battling it out right now. Women's side the Williams sisters are in, so is Ivanovic, but Maria is playing at the moment and is down a set and its looking bleak. Man, Wimbledon isn't going to be that good this year.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Where does time go?!

Wow. I've been so busy the past month. Forgive me for not updating. So, what have I been doing? I've been finishing up school, going on vacation, attending camps and reunions, traveling, and doing all this while trying to stay sane. I know, impossible, right? So, let me update you a bit more in detail:

So, the rest of May was studying for finals and taking them. I'm pretty sure I did well on all of them. I got A's and the worst semester grade was a B+ in Math. YES! After that, I got a hair cut and began packing for Girls Camp, Arizona, and BYU. My hair is really cute! Check out my "myspace" styled picture I took.
Yep. Sorry it isn't better quality. I just don't have time to take good pictures anymore. That was the day of the haircut, and my hair has slightly grown out since. But its really short in the back(she used that buzzer thingy for the back of my neck. SCARY!). And I totally dig the bangs.

So yeah. Haircut. Then I went to Girls Camp the following Monday. I was a YCL(Youth Camp Leader) for the 4th years. I was only there for two days, but they were AWESOME days. My friend got some great pictures that I'll be more than happy to post when I have more time. But then I left early Wednesday morning so that I could leave for Arizona that afternoon with JoNoaEmily(Joe, Noah, and Emily). I was home for a total of 2 hours and then I was back on the road for 22 hours. It was a very scenic drive and I've decided that Arizona is an AMAZING place. Dry, but so beautiful. And we stayed at my cousins' cabin in a place called Strawberry. How cute?! Strawberry, Arizona. And the cabin was more of a mansion. It was huge and gorgeous. We were in Arizona for a family reunion in which I prepared a family slide show containing pictures of my grandparents and my aunts and uncles and their children and even their children. It took about 15-20 hours to put together but everyone loved it. I'm just glad I don't have to do it anymore.

After the reunion and chillin' with my mom's side of the family, JoNoaEmily, Mom, and I travelled 10 hours up to Provo, Utah so that I could attend the week long SummerFest Music Camp. I roomed in a dorm with Tamara and we proceeded to play more violin in one week than we've done in a month. I played a minimum of 3 hours a day. The Max was somewhere around 5-7 hours. Not entirely sure how long. Just a long time. Each night there was an activity and they were all very enjoyable. I had the opportunity to play in the first violin section of the Symphony Orchestra, play second violin in my chamber group, and sing soprano in the group choir. And when I wasn't doing any workshops I was practicing for all of those events. Man, I was a busy little bee that week. It was tiring, but oh so much fun. I've never appreciated music as much as I did that week. But I was happy when Saturday came and went and I was staying at my Grandma's for a day(P.S. I met my soul mate at the camp: his favorite movies are LOTR(all 3), favorite band is Coldplay, favorite ice cream is Butter pecan, favorite animal is a bear. Downsides: he's 22 and his favorite vacation spot is Boston).

Sunday we went to Grandma's church and then had a picnic with Dad's side of the family. I was so exhausted by then that I must admit I wasn't very sociable to my relatives. I feel guilty now, but at the time I couldn't care less. Then we went home, packed, and prepared for the drive the next day. Early Monday morning(5:00 to be exact) we left American Fork, Utah and headed to Columbia, Missouri. We traveled through the morning, into the afternoon, and all through the night. We arrived in Columbia early this morning at 2:00 am and JoNoaEmily arrived in St.Louis at around 4:00 in the morning. And now I'm here trying to get my life back together. I have to teach a lesson today and call my new work to tell them I'm back, and do other various things.

In all, it was a very exhausting month. I'm happy to say that I won't be going anywhere any time soon. Thank goodness. I'm all vacationed-out.

WARNING: All the posts from here on out will probably be related to Wimbledon. Sorry, tennis haters. But I gotta have my Tennis fix.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

I LOVE these Things!

SURVEY using One-Word Response

Stolen from: Steven

1. Where is your cell phone? Here!

2. Your hair? ponytail

3. Work? Teacher

4. Your father? Silly

5. Your favorite thing? Phone

6. Your dream last night? Stressful

7. Your favorite drink? JUICE!

8. Your dream car? Cute

9. The room you're in? Open

10. Your fears? Pain

11. What do you want to be in 10 years? Happy

12. Who did you hang out with last night? Mom

13. What you're not good at? Openness

14. Muffin? Yum

15. One of your wish list items? Job

16. Where you grew up? Missouri

17. Last thing you did? Cleaned

18. What are you wearing? Yellow :)

19. What aren't you wearing? Socks

20. Your pet? Adorable

21. Your computer? Upgrading

22. Your life? Living

23. Your mood? Peaceful

24. Missing? Childhood

25. What are you thinking about right now? Schedule

26. Your car/truck? Parked

27. Your summer? Soon.

28. Your relationship status? nonexistant

29. Your favorite color? pretty

30. When is the last time you really laughed with meaning? Thursday

31. Last time you cried? Yesterday

32. School? Days

33. Least favorite weather? Cold

34. Soup? Hearty

35. Movie? PAUL! :)

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Tennis Pre-Season! YES!

If you didn't know by now, I have been taking tennis lessons at the green center(the university facility) with other people of my own skill level. What I didn't expect was it being run by College-aged people. Not just people...men. Yeah. so that is motivation enough for me to attend. But the tennis lures me more than my instructors. I just love tennis too dang much. Anyways, its been a fun few weeks and I hope it betters my game by the time the season starts. Since there is a two person gap between our #1 and the next person NOT a senior this year, I have to step my game up. I'll be either #2, #3, or #4...unless I really really suck! Hopefully not #2. I'm not THAT good yet. #3 is a comfortable position, and so is #4. But #2 will be intense. It'll be a step down from Dina, who is AMAZING! Yikes. Definitely not ready.

So, anyways, the two main instructors at the Green Center I've christened Paul and Daniel. The I've called "Paul" got that name because, well, he looks like Paul Bettany (SQUEE! MY FAVORITE!).


The other, Daniel, looks like Daniel Faraday from LOST. Well. Sorta. Its more like a combination of this kid I know from school(not named Daniel), Michael Egloff if he were more nerdy, and Daniel Faraday.Anyways, I have a plethora of celebrities at my lessons and they're all lively and energetic. It's fun learning from them. Not to mention the hour long private lesson I had with both one awkward night. No one else came(its supposed to be a group lesson) and I was the only one. So they drilled me all night and fixed my strokes. Actually, they screwed it up. But it was still fun. Yay fun!

P.S. 3 WEEKS UNTIL ROLAND GARROS AKA FRENCH OPEN! YES!!! GRAND SLAMS!!!!

Monday, April 14, 2008

In Honor of the New Playlist!

So, for the past few weeks, I've been obsessing over the music from Across the Universe. It doesn't help that, for one, I'm learning about the 60's in my History class so the Beatles are always apart of the lesson somehow, and second, that my french class has an "I WANT YOU" sign on the door. So I'm going to post a few videos from this beautifully artistic movie and you can enjoy the music too!

I Want You (She's So Heavy)



I've Just Seen A Face(Whole scene)



Come Together



Dear Prudence(Whole Scene)



Strawberry Fields Forever(Potentially hard to handle)



Revolution(could be a little hard to handle for some viewers)



Hey Jude(Whole Scene)



Well, thats all I'm doing. But yeah. This movie is great. I loved it thoroughly!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Prom and I got Tagged...

Here are the much anticipated pictures of prom...well...some of them. It went well, though, and I decided to do my hair curly since I usually don't. The tiara was ADORABLE and mom really went all out on my dress. Overall, I felt really cute and it was a great end to a horrible day (districts. UGH!!)
[Me, Tamara, and Mariah. Red pink and red!]
[All the couples. Don't we all look gorgeous!]
[Mariah asked us to look scared...and I'm the only one that took it seriously. Look at me! I'm PETRIFIED!]

[Twig and Rainbow! And the thing on my arm is this jacket Beckie gave to me about a year before that she got from a friend. I like to call it the Christmas Pimp Coat because its really long and shiny. But it worked PERFECTLY with my outfit. Funny how that works out, huh?]
[This pictures was Ken's idea. He wanted us to look like the world is tilting and we're falling. Ain't it awesome?!]

[Me and Mariah looking cute in the car (notice the pimp jacket...)]

[Waiting for dinner. I'm sitting in the chair, Mariah is sitting on me, and Tamara is sitting on Mariah!]

[At the dance, trying to cram everyone into the shot. Me and Tamara are barely in the shot!]


[Another group shot, and we're supposed to be looking off in wonder. The smile in the background is the greatest(it's Ken, just so you know).]
[Ken and Mariah seem intact in this picture while me and Mike got half our faces in.]

[Different half of a face. Kinda creepy.][I look like Snow White and the Exit Sign over my right hand looks like the poison apple! Completely coincidence, FYI.]

[Me and Tamara, looking really adorable! I'm handing her the bouquet that Mike gave to her. My Mike gave me my bouquet.]

And now time for the Survey that Em tagged me on:

Four Jobs I've Held:
# Paper Route Carrier
# MU School of Engineering Assistant
# Baby sitter
# Private Teacher

Four Movies I Could Watch Over and Over:
# A Knights Tale
# Lord of the Rings
# Wimbledon
# Pride and Prejudice-new version(I love making fun of Kiera Knightly!)

Four Places I've Lived:
# Columbia, MO
# Columbia, MO
# Columbia, MO
# Columbia, MO

Four TV shows I like:
# LOST
# Psych
# Man vs. Wild
# America's Next Top Model

Four People Who Email Me Regularly:
# Tamara
# Dad
# Ms. Belding/School people
# Steven

Four Favorite Foods:
# Spaghetti and warm bread
# Salad
# Strawberry Cream Slush at Sonic
# Brownies(especially Dad's)

Four Places I'd Rather Be:
# St.Louis
# Indiana(because of family. Haven't seen them for a MONTH! Hehe.)
# San Antonio(love the weather. So beautiful)
# New York. I need a good vacation to a busy city so I can appreciate the slow life of Columbia.

Four People I'm Tagging:
# Tamara Kitchen(via email, of course :])
# Steven Lambson
# Elise Lambson
# Juli Lambson(email as well)

Sorry it took me a while to post Prom pictures. I've been busy prepping for the ACT today, which was horrible. I hope I get a good score my first time so I don't have to take it again. YUCK!

Je T'aime! <3