Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Merry Christmas!

Apologize by OneRepublic
(a song on
my blog)
I'm holdin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...


That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Yeah!

Despite the fact that Timbaland makes it all pop-y in the rendition that I have, I love the song. I love its message, its beat, its tune, everything. I think what I've learned through the song is one of the best Christmas presents I've gotten: The courage to accept change and things that may not be what you want. I feel proud knowing that I've learned this life lesson early in life, instead of when I'm out on my own without the protection of my home and without the close love of my family and friends. So I thank you all for the wonderful material gifts you have given me, but the greatest gift is your support and understanding that this year and this coming year will be a particularly dark chapter in my life. I've gone through a lot, and thats not counting the stuff in the past few months. But you've all been there lovingly, and thank you so much.

Juli-You've been a great older sister. That gift you gave me(the journal with courage on the cover and courageous quotes within) is wonderful and fits so well with my life. You're such an inspiration and seem to know everything. Thanks for being there.

Emily-You're embarking on something new in your life, just like me, but you're is slightly more life-altering and considerably cuter. You and your spunkiness give me something to look forward to in life: being a cute and wonderful mom to cute and wonderful kids. I hope that I may have half the life you've lived so far.

Elise-For such a small person, you sure have the biggest personality. You're child-like attitude can be, at times, annoying, but it reminds me to never degrade my past and to embrace the child within, especially around family when you can get away with it.

Beckie-My second mom. You spoil me and always manage to make me feel better, even if it isn't through material means. You're so huggable and loveable, like a giant teddy bear. Thanks for being you!

Steven-My only brother, you let me indulge in my nerdy side. I can discuss, for hours at a time, stuff like Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, heck, even World of Warcraft if the discussion leads to that. Plus, you've helped me grow my passion for sports, particularly Tennis. Love ya, bro!

Sarah-Sure, we used to argue everyday, sometimes with our fists, but you're the closest in age to me and seem to know more about what I'm going through than the rest of my adult siblings. I'm literally a teen and you're a teen in spirit, so thanks for helping me through the hard times, sis.

Mom and Dad-you have been so supportive of all my ambitions, even if some don't follow through, and have attended most of my music concerts(even if you fell asleep during them...DAD!), not to mention raised me. Well, I hope you raised me right because in a few years, I'll be leaving the house and embarking on my own life. I just hope that I'll still be accepted back home, wherever home is after I leave. Love you both, and thanks.

Joe and Tamara-I've hardly known you two, Joe being the longest, and thats saying something, but you seem to fit right into the Lambson family just fine. Don't mind my moodiness. You all were teens at some point in life. And don't be offended if I don't feel like talking to you. You're both a little weird and, Joe, you kinda smell funny(just joking). Its just hormones. Love you both, and thanks for joining our family.

and finally

Tamara Kitchen-In a matter of months, I have become really close to you and have finally found a kindred spirit who can share my burdens with me while I share yours. We have so much in common and I love the fact that the standard issue won't get in the way: we're both mormons! :) I hope that your Sophomore year won't be a disappointment and I hope that my horrible Junior year experiences aren't completely dampening your High School experience. I love you and you're such a strong woman. Stay that way, even when everything loses hope. I'm just beginning to get used to this courage thing, and its hard. I hope you have better luck and easier situations.

Sorry for getting all mushy and stuff, but I've never really fully appreciated those closest to me. Love you all, and enjoy the holidays!



Thursday, December 20, 2007

Life is Finally Settling Down...well, not really.

So its now winter break. FINALLY! YES! Didn't think I'd survive it!

So, now I have to rant about finals. The only one I'm positive I did good on is math, which is surprising. 94%. Crazy, huh? Didn't check my AP multiple choice portion, but I'm predicting an 83% on that one. French was probably 97%, AP English=91%, Sociology=90%, and my DBQ essay for AP was probably the worst. Prediction=78%. Yeah. I did horribly. Oh well. Its over now, and all I have to do is revise an essay, write a thesis analysis on Mr.Deken's paper from a seminar he had last year, and memorize my Much Ado About Nothing lines.

Even more exciting than Winter break?
Yes. Damn Yankees. That is the spring musical, and for the final in Musical Productions, we auditioned. I wasn't expecting much because so far I've been jipped in roles. But guess what? I got the role that I wanted! Which was...

Sister Miller!!

For those who don't know: She's one of Meg's friends, and Meg is Old Joe's wife. And she is soooo funny. I'm uber excited now! Here is the rest of the cast:

Meg Boyd: Olivia H. (she was the lead in last year's Leader of the Pack. She's really good)
Joe Boyd: David S.(A really funny guy who played the drunk mince meat judge in State Fair)
Mr. Applegate: Michael S.(Hank Munson from State Fair)
Sister: Kirsten Lambson(ME!)
Doris: Samantha H.(A really delightful person who played that one lady who always one the mince meat competition in State Fair)
Joe Hardy: Evan B.(Wayne Frake from State Fair. Really good!)
Van Buren: Toby C.(Abel Frake from State Fair. So funny!)
Gloria: Kristen W.(Known her for a while. She's so funny and will do Gloria justice)
Lola: Shinah M.(only the best dancer we have. She's always assigned the slutty parts, but she does them really nicely.)

Washington Senators:
Billy B., Aaron C., Ryan C., Charlie G., Chad G., Sebastian M., Batu O., Nick R., and Nate S.

"Chevy Chase" division:
Lauren B., Destiny H., Samantha H., Emily K., Zoe M., Le'Chai R., Sarah S., Kathryn S., Liz G., Hanna H., Hannah P., Sara R., Sharandell W., and Lauren W.

"I love Joe" division:
Rose D., Leah F., Brianna J., Emily P., Angela R., and Anne S.

Anyways, it promises to be pretty darn good, and its exciting that I finally got a part that I wanted. What kind of name is sister, anyways?

So, now I'm going to watch the movie and appreciate the role of Sister even more. Have a great break!

Friday, December 14, 2007

Finals are coming up. Eek.

Yep. I want to scream...but instead, I'm going to do a survey type thingy to distract me.

If my house were burning down and I could only retrieve one object, I'd save my___?
rabbit. I'd assume I'd be able to stuff my cell phone and iPod in my pocket, right?

If I were a superhero, the superpower I'd most want is_____?
Super speed. I'd get so much done in so little time!

The song that best describes my life is______?
"Try Again" by Keane. or "Bad Dream" by Keane. Keane in general. Everything about Keane.

My favorite beverage is_____?
Hot cocoa and Dr.Pepper. But not together. Gross. :P

My favorite candle scent is____?
Holiday scent right now. Yum!

My favorite restaurant is_____?
I just really love classic 63 Diner. Simple, delicious, and affordable! But Sarah has converted me to El Maguey as well. Really really good.

If I had to wear the same color shirt every day, it would be_____?
a light yellow. I like how it contrasts with my dark hair. Or green. Makes my eyes pop out.

My favorite hymn is_____?
"Where Can I Turn For Peace?" or "Lead Kindly Light"

If I were given one million dollars and 24 hours in which to spend it I would buy____?
Tennis racket($500 or more), car, clothes, purses, shoes, iPhone, and the rest would go to college fund.

If I had to eat the same thing for dinner every day for the rest of my life, it would be_____?
Me and Tamara have agreed that Hot bread is really good. So spaghetti and hot bread.

The one movie that I wouldn't mind watching over and over again is_____?
Well, my favorite is "Runaway Jury" but a movie that I've already proven I can watch over and over again to my family is "A Knight's Tale." I LOVE PAUL BETTANY!!@@##!!<------sorry. Went a little crazy.

The strangest place I've ever been to is_____?
My Aunt Michelle and Uncle Mike's place. That house and family is so crazy.

The place I'd most like to visit is_______?
Europe in general. France or England to narrow it down a bit. Don't care where.

The two adjectives that best describe me are____ and________?
Determined and Passionate.

The person I spend the most time on the phone with is______?
Uh...duh. That'd be Twig. :D

The last person I talked on the phone with is______?
Twig again. (Twig is Tamara, if you didn't know.)

This morning I ate_____ for breakfast.
A panera bagel with cream cheese and a Capri Sun juice thingy. Yummy.

On a scale of one to ten, with one being a neat freak and ten being a total slob, I'm a_____?
Around the house, I'm a 7. In my room, I'm a 4.

The store I buy most of my clothes from is______?
Old Navy. Love that place.

The one thing for which I'd most like to be remembered after I die is_____?
That girl never gave up anything until she knew it was a lost cause. And she climbed everest....and she was mildly humorous(?)

The best Christmas present I ever got was______?
My iPod. It wasn't so much because I'm materialistic, but it was because all my siblings and parents went in to get something for me that they knew I really really wanted and would use and they cared enough to all put in some money to give it to me. When I unwrapped it, I cried. And this isn't even an expensive iPod. Its the original shuffle.

The general authority who I most enjoy hearing speak is_____?
I love Nelson and Monson, but Bednar is slowly climbing the charts.

My favorite perfume is_____?
good smelling kind.

On average, I'm about_____ minutes late for church on Sundays.
Never late. My mom plays organ. If it was early, I'd say 15 minutes.

The last book I read is______?
"All Quiet on the Western Front". AHMYGOSH, I loved it! Such a brilliant book and brilliant writing.

My favorite television show is______?
I've got a few: Man vs. Wild, Last One Standing, Everest: Beyond the Limit, Psych, America's Most Smartest Model, America's Next Top Model, and other stuff I see on.

My favorite Sesame Street character is_____?
Oscar. He's funny.

If my life were made into a movie, I'd want______ to play me.
Paul Bettany...or Rachel Weisz(the older me).

My greatest fear is______?
Needles, not accomplishing my goals I've made for myself, failing and disappointing my parents, and mildly afraid of high places.

If I could choose a new name for myself, it would be_____?
Boy name: Mark Edward Byron(what I was going to be named)
Girl name: Victoria Georgiana

When I was five, I wanted to be a(n)______ when I grew up.
Actress. Two years later I changed my mind and wanted to be a Marine Biologist...and then I wanted to be in the Military. Two of those dreams still remain.(you pick out the two)

If I was given an extra $10 at Wal-Mart, I would______?
Buy a CD.

In five years, I'd like to be doing the following:
Attending college, succeeding at the ROTC, maybe auditioning for a mission in Nauvoo, or auditioning for acting roles(mom doesn't want me to act. My dreams may change soon)

My favorite day of the week is____?
Sunday. Its my down time in the week. I don't do homework, don't even fret about school and can spend the day growing closer to the lord.

My favorite temple is_____?
Ugh, this is hard. I love the Nauvoo temple because its a replica of the beauty the early saints created. But I also love the Tokyo temple and San Diego(looks like a castle!!)

My dream job is____?
Instead of doing job, here's my dream life:
Graduate high school, go to BYU and enlist in the ROTC while majoring in some form of music and either theatre or sociology and serve as an Officer in the Air Force while maybe doing my career. Then I'll get married and settle down somewhere in Europe with my hot European hubby.

My favorite animated Disney movie is_____?
I really love Mulan...but I can't choose a favorite. Thats too hard.

The last movie I was in a theater is_____?
Um. I can't remember. Is that bad?

Thats it! That was really long! But really fun. :]

Enjoy the weekend.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Looking into the Soul

The month of December, or the Holiday season in general, really gets me thinking about my life and the things that I enjoy and the things that I wish were true. Its a month that I can really begin to discover myself and how I've grown throughout the year. So, I'm going to ask myself questions and attempt to answer them.

Did you learn any life lessons?
Yes. I've learned to believe in myself and trust in the lord, that he knows more about what I'm doing than I do and trusts my judgments. It won't be easy, but I've learned that my Heavenly father will be with me each and every step of the way.

What was your favorite moment?
Thats hard to say. Its a tie between getting a 5 on my AP exam, becoming a varsity player on the tennis team, finally reading the last Harry Potter book, and attending Youth Conference with some of my closest friends. Oh, and watching my brother get married and my sister finally hold her long-anticipated son in her arms.

Anything special happen on 7/7/07?
Nope. :] Just a normal day.

Ever get extremely sick?
I did get heat exhaustion the first day of Youth Conference. Not fun. :P

Hardest time to endure?
Track season. It was a mental and physical challenge that really pushed me to the limits but ultimately polished me into a true believer of determination and non-procrastination.

Biggest crush?
Bear Grylls. That man is a beast!

Favorite TV station?
Discover Channel. I feel like such a nerd...

Best movie?
Imma have to go with Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. *squee*

Biggest short term addiction?
Reading the Twilight Series in 3 weeks. That series is the nicotine of literature.

Scariest not-scary moment?
When I scraped up against that car minutes before Steven got married, and I thought that I had made a big dent. All it was was a few scratch marks that rubbed right off. But I cried like a baby.

Most tearful moment?
Either when Roger Federer won Wimbledon this year after 5 sets against Nadal(TAKE THAT) or when I finished HP and the DH and cried for 2 hours straight about how amazing it was.

Best discovered band?
either Rocco DeLuca and the Burden or Keane. Both are simply splendid.

Craziest dog?
Iris. Yikes.

Best part of the year?
Knowing its another year lived, another year survived, and another year experienced and that I have a boat-load of memories of 2007 and that it all starts over again with less mistakes and more challenges. Thank you guys for a great year. :]

(feel free to do the survey yourself. I just kinda made it up as I went along, so many questions are very related. Sorry. But I don't have a mind that can easily jump from topic to topic.)