Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Track. 'Nuff Said.

Track started yesterday. Yesterday wasn't so bad, except for when my heart rate didn't go down and I felt like I was going to throw up. That was the worst feeling in the world. But I did okay with everything else. It was today that really tested my determination and endurance. The moment I walked onto that track and tried to run, my thighs and inner thighs especially gave way and I couldn't run without falling on my face. It felt like I had knives stuck at the joints of my hips and thighs. It was so painful that it brought tears to my eyes. I almost went to the physical therapist that resides down where the locker rooms are, but I didn't. I just bit my lip, did some stretches, and bit my lip some more. It was one of the most horrific things ever. I literally thought that I had torn something. But I lasted to the end, and although it still hurts, I feel accomplished that I didn't give up. This first week is going to be the worst, but what first week isn't? If I let this first week drag me down, then I'm really not as strong as I thought I was. I've got a passion to get through this year without quitting, and I'm going to do it. I've managed to juggle every other thing in my life, and the coaches don't seem to mind that I'm in a One-Act that will affect my practice sessions. So if there aren't any real obstacles except pain, I'm doing it. I'm not a quitter.

It does really hurt though. I'm going to sit and do some RIHLA work tonight with some kind of munching food, hot cocoa, and a heating pad to my thighs. Couldn't ask for anything better.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

The Slump and Everything Else

I wish I had the life of a cat. They just lounge around and eat all day.

I'm still suffering. 3rd quarter is always the worst, and its showing. Not in my grades, I've still kept straight A's. Maybe not, because I haven't seen my AP grade. That could be a B because of the impossible Middle Ages quiz a couple of weeks ago. But I think I did good on the Mongolia quiz. I know 3 of my grades, possibly even 5:
1. Orchestra-A...hard not to get one
2. Biology-A (a shocking 96%)
3. Musical Productions-A...only because its hard not to get an A, like orchestra
4. French-A (99%, probably 100% because she had to make a correction)
5. Math-A (97%)
6. AP world history/Honors English block-?
7. AP world history/Honors English block-?

Midterms come out tomorrow, so I'll know soon enough. But I feel emotionally drained. I wish I could sleep in everyday and wake up to the sun shining on my face and eat a healthy and warm breakfast while writing random things, maybe even my future novel. And the whole rest of the day consists of playing my violin, reading books, going out and enjoying the hussle and bussle of the chaotic world and not have any responsiblities except for cleaning my used dishes and making sure that my iPod is charged completely. *sigh* I'm sick of the monotiny of school. I get up, do my hair and make-up, eat breakfast while doing scripture study, drive to seminary, sit in seminary, go to school, go to every class going the same pathway since day 1, and then either coming home and teaching/doing homework or going to play practice. Starting monday, I'll be doing track, which I hope doesn't drain me as much as I think it will.

I want the monotone of my day to end. I want to do things the way I want to do them and not have to worry about rules or limits or anything like that. Why can't I just...go away?! Leave this world and go into another where I can just rest?! I'm exhausted! And I think everyone can feel how exhausted I am.

Anyways, I've got biology homework to finish and then I'm going to sleep early. G'night.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Obsessed much?

Okay, so I can't help but notice that I'm turning my once simple and ordinary blog into a Harry Potter Shrine. Sorry, folks, but this will be something you'll have to get used to until July 21st comes rolling around. Even then, there'll be some lingering Harry Potter stuff, because it is my life. But the widget at the top will be gone, and the current image thing I have to the side will sport images for Half-Blood Prince when filming starts, which is rumored to be this summer.

This is what I think should happen for the next two movies:

1. Director for Half-Blood Prince: M. Night Shyamalan
My reasoning: He'll be able to make the movie as dark as it needs to be, and most of his movies are about the relationships between people, and since this is the most crucial book when it comes to the relationship between Harry and Dumbledore, M. Night would do a FANTASTIC job. He'll create the mood and then make the perfect climax when Snape Avada Kedavra's Dumbledore.

2. Director for Deathly Hallows: Christopher Nolan or Alfonso Cuaron
My reasoning for Chris Nolan: After seeing 2 amazing movies by him (Batman Begins, The Prestige), I'm convinced that he will create, again, the perfect mood needed for such a dark movie. He does a wonderful job following the journey of someone who feels like their life is in pieces and that the only way to survive in the world is to complete a mission they've set for themselves(Bruce Wayne, Robert Angier, and hopefully Harry Potter). I think he'd do AMAZING!

My reasoning for Alfonso Cuaron: He, in my opinion, did such a phenomenal job with Prisoner of Azkaban that I'd like to see his genius work again for another Harry Potter book. He'd make it so that Harry Potter fans would enjoy it and people who don't have the obsessive love for the books can too. I have complete faith that he'd do marvelous.

Anyways, I probably should use the bathroom, because I've needed to use the bathroom for about an hour now, and then read something. My eyes are starting to hurt.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

100 Things

This post is going to be all about me. If I can do 100 things, it'll truely be an accomplishment. Some will be deep, some will be stupid. Deal with it.

1. If I complain about going to school, I usually come home feeling glad that I went.
2. I always forget things unless I write them down more than once.
3. I'm secretly glad that I'm not an only child, even though I complain about being the youngest sometimes. I love my family, right down to the fights I get into to the moments we have where we're in stiches or crying uncontrollably.
4. I like to sit in my room and think up new movie ideas and sometimes if their good enough I write them down. I've got at least 3 notebooks with ideas.
5. I have a burning desire to be on broadway.
6. I got interested in acting when I first saw Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone and realized that those were kids that were acting and since I was a kid, I thought, "hey, maybe I could do that too."
7. I have developed a huge problem with mainstream music.
8. I've got a hidden motivation that drives me to be the best I can be.
9. I've wanted to be in the Military ever since 4th grade. I can still remember the moment that I first felt that burning passion to serve my country and protect it.
10. I conduct to soundtracks. Most specifically Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest.
11. I'm in love with Orlando Bloom, even though I constantly deny it.
12. I'm really unimpressed with most actresses. None of them strike me as extremely talented.
13. I'm convinced that my future husband and I are going to meet by chance at a bookstore.
14. This is my favorite number.
15. I'm a complete Romantic, yet I'm very cynical when it comes to relationships.
16. I love my green eyes. Completely love them.
17. My favorite childhood cartoon was Recess.
18. My friend Kelsey makes me feel like a kid again everytime I hang out with her
19. I fell in the church parking lot today. It was hilarious.
20. The only reason why I started listening to Coldplay was because I was reading up information on Dominic Monaghan, and Coldplay was listed as one of his favorite bands. I decided "Whatever Dominic likes, I like", and I took my sister Beckie's Coldplay CD and listened to it. The rest is history.
21. I sometimes wish I were back in Elementary School. Life was so much easier.
22. I feel like I'm the only one with a religious foundation at my school.
23. My crushes change faster than Missouri's weather.
24. I've lived in Missouri my whole life.
25. My favorite city in the United States is San Antonio.
26. Playing my violin makes me feel good about myself.
27. Almost every one of my favorite movies makes me cry.
28. I feel overwhelmed when I think about watching Lord of the Rings.
29. I love Paul Bettany. His smile makes me smile.
30. I'm in love with this jacket that I have (the one I'm wearing in the picture), and its got so many holes that I'm afraid my mom will make me get rid of it. I never want to.
31. Mostly every morning, I'm scared of finding my rabbit, Cocoa, dead.
32. 85% of my dreams feel so real that when they end I either feel a strong sense of relief (if it was bad) or a strong sense of loss.
33. I'm terrified of my basement.
34. I'm very uncomfortable with heights and with the dark.
35. The Superman at Six Flags made me lose the feeling in my legs. for 20 minutes.
36. My favorite super hero is Batman.
37. I'm always thirsty.
38. If I could eat as much of something without it being unhealthy I'd eat ice cream.
39. I love acting. I may not be the best, but I love where it takes me and how it makes me feel.
40. I'm not as bad of a singer as I thought I was.
41. The only reason why I don't want to be a teacher is because I don't want to be in the Lambson family norm. I want to do something different.
42. I have Deja Vu frequently.
43. my initials spell Kael. Kirsten-Anne Elizabeth Lambson
44. A huge pet peeve of mine is when people consider Anne my middle name. It is NOT my middle name! Its my hyphenated name! The Elizabeth constantly gets ignored, and I love it more than Anne.
45. Taking notes has to be one of the most boring things ever.
46. I hate quiet teachers. If you're going to teach, be assertive!
47. I've got a lot of passion for really dumb things.
48. I have to be told something is wrong the first time before I can feel confident when I do it the second time. Even if its right the first time, I'll still fret and redo it even though I don't have to.
49. I find people that date when they're younger than 16 apalling.
50. British bands are my favorite.
51. I love love love love playing bluegrass.
52. I'm disappointed in the cartoons they show nowadays.
53. When I have kids, I want mostly boys. I've got more boys names planned out than girls.
54. I'm beginning to realize that I can't juggle track and the One-act.
55. I love all animals.
56. I want to write a novel, or maybe even many. I also want to write an auto-biography.
57. The Harry Potter series have really impacted my life.
58. I find the french language to be the most beautiful language.
59. I've always wanted to be in the Winter Olympics. I would always pretend I was when I was a kid.
60. I love learning about religions.
61. My most favorite aspect about learning about my religion is learning about Church History, like Joseph Smith up to today.
62. If I could meet anyone from the Bible, it would be Isaiah.
63. If I could get rid of anything in the world, it would be the gene that causes teens to be rebels.
64. I'm ashamed of my peer group sometimes.
65. I would love to have my own radio show and talk about whatever I want.
66. My sister Beckie spoils me. She used to call herself my "second mom"
67. I wish I could get rid of my achne. Its ruthless, and it never lets up, even when I try viciously to rid of it.
68. I don't find myself particularly attractive.
69. Tennis is the only sport I follow.
70. I always feel a sense of loss when I think of Sirius Black.
71. The Little Prince never fails to make me cry and laugh and feel so good everytime I read it.
72.I have a strong testimony about my patriarchal blessing. It has helped me so much.
73. I'm afraid of making mistakes. Even when its okay to.
74. I feel sad when I remember that I'm not taking piano lessons anymore.
75. Politics isn't what it used to be.
76. I listen and find the perfect songs to go with my movie ideas. I've yet to compile them into an actual "soundtrack" so that when I feel like "watching" this movie idea I can listen to this "soundtrack".
77. I wish that women in history had a better and stronger role in society.
78. I think it would be fun to be a contestant in the Miss America pageant.
79. My dream is to enlist in the military(Air Force, hopefully), and then act on stage and film, get married and hopefully get an oscar, and after I get that oscar, I'll drop off the face of the celebrity planet, and live in a small town in the british isles where I'll own a small café and write and take care of the kids while my husband does his local doctoring business.
80. I find some cartoons to be attractive (Prince Phillip from Sleeping Beauty, Demitri from Anastasia)
81. If I could guest star on any show, it would be The Pretender (if it were still on). Next would be Psych.
82. My favorite musical is West Side Story, because even as a kid, it made me cry.
83. One of my best memories was watching Lord of the Rings: Return of the King in an outdoor theatre with my cousins and we were the closest to the screen because we wanted to be the closest, and we were so close it hurt our ears, so we semi-plugged them to listen. I remember crying so badly that I soaked an entire quilt that we were sitting on.
84. I've learned to love my curley hair.
85. I love running and how it makes me feel after I'm done.
86. Dancing is so much fun! I dance in my room all the time while listening to my iPod.
87. I made a New Years Resolution to stop biting my nails, and I've done marvelously well.
88. If I could spend as much money as possible, I'd buy a ton of shoes and purses.
89. I can sing up to a really high B. its almost 2 octaves higher than middle C.
90. I love what my violin teacher, Carrie Turner, has taught me about not just the violin, but about life and about choices.
91. Jr. High was the best time of my life so far.
92. I love watching the sun rise.
93. If I could live any fairytale, I'd live the tale of Cinderella. I want my prince charming to go searching for me without any evidence of my existence except for one small glass slipper.
94. My weirdest dream was when I was shopping for hats with Paul Bettany and he pointed to a bonnet and wore it. He then said, if I remember correctly, "I look lovelier than the bottom of a bumblebee."
95. The first Rated R movie I saw was The Matrix, and I'm not sure I was supposed to watch it, but I remember my mom being there.
96. My parents have really inspired me to do whatever I want, as long as I'm home in time for dinner. (crazy bell...)
97. My favorite Harry Potter character is Snape.
98. The Little Prince still makes me cry everytime I read it.
99. I act stronger than I really am. I'm actually quite weak.
100. A teacher once was so convinced that I wasn't from Columbia that he denied flat out when I said I was born and raised in Columbia. He wouldn't hear of it. He first said I was from England but then eventually settled on Chicago.

So...this took almost a whole week to do. I actually got 87 done in one afternoon, but then I decided to finish later...and that later was tonight. I have nothing to do, and I'm loving the weather and the great music I'm listening to and the scrumptious food settling in my stomach. I feel content with my life, which is weird, seeing that I have another RIHLA that I should be planning for the next 4 weeks.

I almost forgot to record Gilmore Girls and Veronica Mars for my sister, Beckie. That would mean I wouldn't be getting the gift she got for me for doing that. She spoils me.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentines Day

I'm not a big fan of celebrating Valentines Day, but to those who are, hope you had an awesome time. As for me? I just had play rehearsal which was a tad bit awkward because I have a romantic scene with someone. I feel more bad for him than for me, actually. I also came home after an hour and a half of errands with my sister and stayed in bed, feeling very unwell. Then I watched Flushed Away, which is so hilarious and adorable! I love it! Everyone who hasn't seen it...see it!
The big albino rat is so awesome! And the frog in the background is pretty evil. I hate frogs now. And I want a rat with as pretty hair as Hugh Jackman's character has. Its perfect throughout the whole movie. Its great, folks.

I can't believe that I'm listening to Fergilicious right now. But its friggen hilarious.
"T to the A to the S-T-E-Y girl your tastey."

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

I Cried Today

I think that today its finally hit me how final the 21st of July is going to be. I decided to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today because it was a snow day, and as it was going on, mainly during the ending, I cried once for Cedric's death, twice in anticipation to his death, and then finally at the very end when everyone is saying goodbye, not because the movie was over but because the final book is 5 months from being released. 5 months remain and then its done. Its almost like a doctor came up to me February 1st and told me that I have 5-6 months to live and that the final day would be the 21st of July, 2007. You would think I would be happy, and I am, but theres nothing else after that. No more. Just an epilogue and maybe a Harry Potter Encyclopedia. I can't even imagine how JK Rowling is feeling at this moment. Well...maybe I can:

"Even while I'm mourning, though, I feel an incredible sense of achievement. I can hardly believe that I've finally written the ending I've been planning for so many years. I've never felt such a mixture of extreme emotions in my life, never dreamed I could feel simultaneously heartbroken and euphoric."

If I'm feeling so emotional, I'm surprised that Jo didn't go crazy. But she also mentioned that she was feeling very relieved but sad. I cried probably for 20 minutes after the movie and laughed at myself because I was crying. But, if anyone is joining me for a release date party, I'll probably sob the moment I lay hands on that book. for at least 8 years of my life, I have read and loved Harry Potter and have been so captivated by the world that JK Rowling created. I have connected with so many of the characters, laughed with them, cried with them, and felt so much loss when characters died. Jo has created this amazing world that children and adults alike can delve into and live in for the time their eyes scan the pages. It has been such a big part of my life and its so sad to have to see it go, but so satisfying to say that I have read all the long and short of those books from 1-7 and to finally see Lord Voldemort be destroyed and hopefully the ending that I've been dreaming up for a long time.

While the books may be done, the movies have yet to be finished, and I hope that from the 5th movie to the end that I will not be disappointed. These are going to be the most emotional and you all who are going to direct these movies better not screw it up! I expect to cry uncontrollably when Sirius, Dumbledore, and any other person dies and when Bill gets mauled and when every other thing happens.

Now, I'm going to eat dinner then watch Psych and be happy. No more concentrating on the finality of Harry Potter.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Picture Time!

I finally have access to a camera. My brother held it hostage for his photography class, but me and my mom made him bring it back, and I took pictures. They'll be spread out throughout this post. It was a wonderful meditation for me, seeing as I haven't been having such a good day. It was good until 3:00 today. Then it started going down hill. I almost got into 2 wrecks while driving. I'm going to watch Marie Antoinette tonight and maybe even A Knight's Tale, just because it makes me happy. I also have to watch Psych, because I missed it when I went to the theatre to watch The Messengers, which wasn't such a sucky movie after all.
You all are probably wondering why I wrote last post that playing with play-doh is one of my favorite activities. Well, it just so happens that I got play-doh from my friend for my birthday. Its an amazing assortment of small play-doh containers, and it is so much fun creating and smashing. I just love it, and I love how portable they are.

I wrote my book report today. It isn't as bad as I expected. In fact, it was pretty good. But the more I delve into the book An Anthropologist from Mars, the more I think about my own mind and my thoughts and what would happen if it all went crazy up there in my brain. What would happen if some neurological disorder infected my brain and I couldn't do anything about it? Its a really good book, but it really gets you thinking about your life.

Have a good Saturday night!

Friday, February 9, 2007

A Week has Gone By

Nothing completely eventful has happened. Well, except for One-Act Auditions, which I did make, by the way. I'm in a One-Act play written and directed by Hickman's very own Nathan Hults and it has absolutely no point. Its called "Skit n' Kaboodle" and its very interesting. Funny at parts, but a bit blasphemous with the end scene. But I've vowed to stay with it. I'm hoping I'll be able to juggle that and track.

I wish that it were sunny outside. I wish that I could bask in the sunlight and smell the beautiful spring colors, but its grey, and not even an attractive grey. Its a murky nasty grey that is quite depressing and isn't putting me in a better mood. I'm looking forward to some of this weekend. It is going to be hectic, but parts of it should be fun.

Saturday's Schedule:
9:00-10:30-Seminary "Good Attendance" breakfast
10:30-12:30-Jam session with the gals (Mariah and Naomi)
12:30-1:30-Lunch and homework(most specifically, Stearns)
3:00-6:00-Homework, job, other things(this is my free time for the day)
7:00-8:15-Gig at the Executive Center
8:30-10:00-some more homework and relaxation.

Its a very busy day, and thats the story of my life. I'm hoping to get some homework done tonight, some relaxation, and maybe go see The Messengers with Sarah late in the evening, because we love seeing dumb scary movies. Tonight will be a night of detox, and I've been needing this ever since monday.

Favorite Things:
1. Playing with Play-Doh during lunch and AP
2. Guitar Hero II at Sara's house
3. Rocco DeLuca and the Burden
4. NPR podcasts
5. Mugglecast, Pottercast, and Spinnerscast(all of them are podcasts related to Harry Potter)
6. Jack on Lost. I love him!
7. Leaky Cauldron news
8. Discussing Harry Potter
9. Driving. Its very relaxing
10. My Districts Solo

Least Favorite Things:
1. Having to learn about the Mongols in 5 days and then take a test over them
2. Stearns(R/R's in general)
3. Valentines' Day (I'm a big cynic)
4. Cold weather
5. Sitting all day and learning. I just want to relax!
6. Panic! At The Disco. They're such a bad band!
7. People that bug me
8. Taking notes in class
9. The quiz I took yesterday in AP
10. The blasphemous scene in the One-Act

Thursday, February 1, 2007

The End is Near!

Today, yes, today, is a very memorable day. This is the day that JK Rowling released the ever anticipated date of the 7th and final book, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

It is going to be released.........


Saturday, July 21st, 2007.

asdkfjfsewjoewkewoijdsfokefw!!! I literally screamed and squealed for quite some time, and chilled out enough to realize that this is the end. No more Harry Potter after this book. He might live in the book, but we won't be able to read anymore on the endearing boy's life. Its going to be a very bittersweet day when I lay my hands on that last book and read it. I sort of want to take as long as possible to read it so that it doesn't end until I feel it should. But I'll probably read it in 24 hours time, or less.

The funniest thing about this date is that everyone on the Leaky Cauldron.org is analyzing that day and if it has any significance at all. Its just a day...or is it? Anyone have their own theories to why Jo decided on 7/21/07? Maybe thats how old Harry will get until he dies!

anyways, thats it. Oh, and we got all the course schedule things today to decide on what we want to take next year. Scary, huh? I'm almost a junior in high school! And Track Pre-season will officially start on Monday. I'm so excited! yay for track!

Much love.